HEY YO

SO even though i said i was back i know i've been neglecting yall..
so wat up people..
i promise i will update u very very soon wit some more of that poetic writing i do best..
but i little life update..
-Back at the good ol' VCU
-Grades are amazing
-Gotta random job( but i might quit b4 i even start cause already im not feeling it)
Well thats updates in a nut shell..

-Live life to the fullest, because you will be gone before you know it
-J.Shaw

I HAVE RETURNED!

SOOOOOO
I haven't been here in awhile and i guess i will fill you in on whats gone on in my departure.

1. i went to Jamaica
-had a blast, got a tan, and saw family i haven't seen in oh idk 12 years.. it was fun
2. i got back in2 school..
- back at that good ol' VCU... so far this year seems promising but i mean only time will truly tell
3. oh yeah i remodeled my basement
-my sister moved her stuff from grad school.. and now she lives in the 2 bed room apt. in the basement, cleaning priming and painting was a very time consuming and tiring task, but it was fun.

well i think that's most of my summer in a nut shell..
I'll be here more often now that i have more free time :-)

BLOWN

so im kinda upset cause one night out of the blue my laptop power cord decided to burn out...
the thing was working fine then out of nowhere the wires burnt through the plastic cording
and im left without a laptop and am now forced to use the home computer...
sigh..sad story of my life :-(

does anyone know?

Does anyone know how to go about get a book published??
I mean like wit a legitimate publishing company or maybe just get something copy written...
im sure i could google it but i just thought that it would be a lot more fun to blog the question... so does anybody know??

Observation

Im intrigued and enticed

and orange tick-tacs are my only vice

like how a person named ____ is my current muse

and how i feel the need to abuse

my bank account to buy all the latest, fliest, sickest, illest shoes

and dismiss all those who refuse to follow the rules

and fail to meet the guidelines and standards I approve

dont get me wrong i am NOT judging you

but i think that there is a lot upon which you can improve

now thats a mere suggestion, but really what do you have to lose

the reward is greater than the sacrifice

but please feel no pressure, cause these are just my views

cause you win some and you lose

and ultimately in the end your still you.

APPROVED

It never occurred to me
to get in tune with the inner me
to search within myself
and find out who I'm meant to be
I realized I live according to the rules
inside of the box that society has approved
but what fun is it to always follow the rules?
to live your life under the status of "APPROVED"
seems pretty dull on my end
so here is where i bend the rules
color outside the lines
run with scissors
and cut to the front of the line
life needs excitement but under the standards set by you
So reach for the stars
and come back with the moon
who says its wrong
this is life approved by you

LIL' JON IN B-MORE?!?!

So im just wondering when lil' Jon made the move from ATL crunk to B-more club
but i aint gonna fake, i do like the song

Cant do this anymore

So I have come to the conclusion
that living at home with my mother will be the death of me...
in my observations i realized (well at least for me)
my mother is sooooo extra, tryna make new rules bout dumb stuff..
granted im still young, but i mean damn chill out, im not dumb
I can hardly take liven with my mother at the age of 19....
How do people do it at the age of 25 or 30.. i mean come on now...

IM THE JUGGERNAUT BITCH

the funniest thing on youtube aside from scarlet and her tumble...

who I am

Who I am is nothing short of a mystery
it might be a little dramatic to say my life as been filled with nothing but pain and misery
But underneath it all... There is me
As mean as i wanna be
people inquire why
and all i can do is lie
cause that's a side of me that goes unseen
Whats hidden behind my outer shell
is nothing short of the living hell
No one ventures there but, occasionally me
and every once in a while you can see
the actual toll it takes on me
I often wonder why it happened to me
cause i know this isn't how life is suppose to be
Their suppose to be there for me
physically, mentally, and emotionally
But all i get is the occasionally
I'm here for you financially
And when you turn around again their gone and unseen
i think this is the root to my mean
well at least that's what my therapists says
"It comes from the pain, that comes from the hurt"
But then you ask who could cause such a hurt and pain
the simple reply "Mr. & Mrs. whats their name"
Its the unofficial title I've developed and composed in my brain
if i told you their real names
would you look at me the same
or would you feel you some how now understand my pain?
I don't mean to be mean
but hey what can i say
its kinda hard to be nice when you only know pain
So thank you "deserter" for deserting me
I am who I am
and that is all I'll ever be
But i don't hate you for it I swear
I've learned to love regardless of the fact that
YOU WERE NEVER THERE...


(to be continued) maybe :-)

INTRODUCTION

So here is my first blog. Been pondering whether to start one or not. I guess the boredom of home life has taken over, so here I am. Not much to say on this but i'll be back on a weekly basis to update my borebom status.